The Bitter Sweet

You sit in the sun filtered light of late afternoon.
Oatmeal swimming in molasses and milk drips off as you spoon feed the boy who is in your care. You look across the table and see him happily staring into his green IPad and chewing on his oats.

How in the world can you be charged with his care, 5 days a week for 9 hours a day. It was a scary thought that pressed into your mind. You hope you are doing it well  and honoring the Lord through it.

A soft child lullaby plays.
Air conditioning spins.
The trees swish back and forth out the window.

A smile slowly creeps across your face.
Simultaneously your throat closes and you stifle a sob.
What a bitter sweet feeling.

Somehow it's bareable to go on living life even when everything is caving around you.
The Lord will never let you go or forsake you.
And anyways we are called to be more than conquroues so let us be just that.
Cast Saten out of your life, make him work for you not against you.
Don't settle for anything less but the Lords goodness in your life.
You are strong.
Your are capable.
And HE loves you,